So what do you do when you fall off the horse?
Well, if you’re me, then you first look around to see how
many people witnessed the fall because your injuries will be in direct
proportion to the number of people who saw you sustain them.
For example, in a large group of people my reaction would be
as follows:
“No, no guys! I’m good. Don’t even worry! No, it’s cool, my arm usually bends like
that, I swear. And I’m pretty sure it’s ok for my shin bone to be peeking out of
my skin like that. It just needed a little fresh air, that’s all. I’ll just
walk it off, it’ll be fine. Walk it off….walk it off. Now where is that horse?
Time to jump back on!!”
Now, if no one had seen it…my phone would be out and I would be dialing 911 on my way down to the ground; because even if I only had a scratch,
there’s always the possibility of getting mad horse disease…which isn’t even a
thing, but I’m sure I would be the first to contract it. I would then concoct a
believable story about being mugged by the horse so that the EMS personnel
wouldn’t know that the injuries were due to me trying to stand up on the saddle
of the horse like they do in the circus.
Those reactions aren’t because I’m prideful; it’s actually
just the opposite. I can’t stand to be the center of attention especially if
the attention is garnered because of an injury. So, I’ll do whatever I can to
ensure that the attention is directed elsewhere as quickly as possible. Look a
unicorn!!
It’s the same idea here. How do I direct attention away from
the emotional injuries sustained earlier? Try, try again. And so we shall.
We’re currently regrouping to see how we should move
forward. Right now, Frankie only has one embryo frozen at the clinic, and it
really isn’t a great embryo. In fact, it wasn’t even able to be graded, so we
have no idea whether or not it would continue to develop in utero. Using that
embryo simply isn’t the best idea if we want to give ourselves the best chance
of success. So, realistically we have two options:
The first is to see whether or not Frankie has any frozen
swimmers left at the clinic. If he does, we would ask the ED we used from the
first round to cycle again for us, fertilize the eggs with Frankie’s frozen
sperm and then proceed with another fresh embryo transfer after the cycle. We
would really love to have the same genetic mother for any children we are lucky
enough to have. So, in some ways, this option would be ideal because who knows
what our ED will be doing in the future and whether or not she would be willing
to donate again down the line.
The second is to try a frozen embryo transfer with one of the
7 embryos with my genetic material. The agency we’re using (New Life) has been
really great in working with us as a couple and not making us jump through a
lot of hoops should we need to change the contract with them (using my embryos
instead of his). I would much rather use Frankie’s embryos, but time and money
make that a bit more difficult if he has no frozen sperm left over. If we were
to go down that road and use mine, and we were lucky enough to be successful,
we would then see if our ED would be willing to donate sometime next year when
we went for baby pick-up. That way, Frankie can donate more swimmers while we’re
there, and those embryos can be frozen for a later attempt with his material,
and if we tried for a sibling in the future, our kids would be genetically
related.
So, that’s where we stand right now. We are once again full
of hope, full of excitement, and full of joy. That might also be due to the
pleasant distraction of leaving for an all-inclusive resort in Cancun on
Monday, but either way…hope, excitement and joy. And a liquor dispenser in our room at the resort.
